A dash of flash poetry:

suddenly
the world tilted
like a band
vertical horizon.

fire raining down
from the transposed heaven
on stone

scalded

i clutched the searing
red glow
and found my fingers
charred

and my chest
gaping
like a crater

smouldering.

This was poem was originally written on March 29th, 2006. Originally, this was entitled Melancholic; that's because melancholy was the emotional weather at that time. Likewise, it says on the first line that this is just a dash of flash poetry. Who said that only prose can be flashy?

Yes! It's another open letter. This time, Richard is writing this out of sheer desperation and frustration regarding the situation.

"Why did this all have to happen that I live in my universe and you have your own?" he asked as he sat in front of his computer.

"All I want is to be your harbor..." was the aptly playing song in the background.

He wanted to post this because you seem to be so near yet you are so far from his reach.

Everyday, he tries to elicit a response from you. He would always be the one to initiate the text messaging although he knows that there will be a danger to his sanity that you will not respond. Lately, you do but it seems that the happiness is too flimsy and fleeting to hold on to. That is what makes him desperate.

Instead of writing this for himself, I had to write this stupid letter for him. He is so frustrated that he cannot even touch his own pen to begin writing. I love his handwriting so much but it seems that you are stopping him from writing, from showing his love for you and most of all, from being happy. That is what makes me frustrated.

The song is now coming to an end as the speakers say:

"fear is the brightest of signs
the shape of the boundary you leave behind
so sing all your questions to sleep
the answers are out there in the drowning deep"

No! Another open letter for somebody who might not even care. Richard is pining away in desperation. He is twisting in frustration but the song was starting to loop back to the start.
Butterfly_Effect_by_Elentori

Open your cupped hands.


Fluttering away, you will see
the red wings & black markings
fade into the blue.
You will hear at every flap
clapping
from the light bright heart
of your liberated captive.


The wind will take the butterfly away.
You have no need to fret
because the memory will flutter back
whenever you find roses
- drifting in the wind.


Tomorrow, put a smile on & hold this fact true:
If you've held fast today,
you'll only have stains of red & black
- powdered wings and crushed body.
Something will be left - something sure
permanent, indelible, immortal
that neither time nor tears could wear or wash away.

This is still part of Richard's attempt to collect and collate most of his poetry to this blog. This is actually an old poem from March 13, 2005. He wrote this while he was at work.

Richard decided to post this in response to Cecille's comment on Emjay's photograph of a dragonfly.

vienna "I died in a car crash three days ago... ."

After hearing that line, Richard's attraction to morbidity awakened. He asked Raissa about that line and she told him that it was part of a song composed and sung by Vienna Teng. Later, when they arrived in the condominium, she pulled out the CD and played it for Richard to hear.

Instantly, Richard's eccentric musical taste became addicted to Vienna Teng's Music. Out of sheer curiosity and admiration, he researched about her and he found out that she was a so like him in many ways.

They were both Asian. They were both in lucrative careers in their respective countries but most importantly, they both let go of those things to so that they could follow their hearts and answered the call of their passion.

Being Asian is actually just a minor similarity. Richard was just thinking of something to add to his list of similarities with Vienna. Seriously, though it is just a minor one, Richard felt an affinity with Vienna. You may not know it and he may not look it but when he was in college, Richard was always asked if he was Chinese.

"My grandmother on my mother's side of the family is from the Nim family so I guess so. I couldn't really prove it but I want to believe it's the truth," he said to one guy from the business organization booth beside his org's booth during the recruitment period in their university.

Vienna, on the other hand, is pure Chinese, or so Richard thought. He was so obsessed with her that he researched her on the net. According to her website, ViennaTeng.com, Wikipedia got most of her information  right so he believed what he read there. After reading that, he learned that she is Taiwanese! There, he learned that she was as Cynthia Yih Shih and her birthday is celebrated every October 3. When he read that on October 14th, he felt somewhat sad because he wanted to celebrate the day and thank God for creating such a talented lady.

As he read on, he found out that Vienna started out as a software engineer in the Silicon Valley and she graduated from Stanford. Richard thought, "Hmmm.... it seems that she's also like me in that aspect. I'm also in a good paying job." He was working as a customer service representative for a call center then.

"So how did she become a singer-song writer?" he asked the monitor facing him. He tried looking for the answer and according to the official biography he found on Wikipedia, while she was at Stanford, she joined the Stanford Harmonics, an a capella singing group. She studied and wrote her music as well. Reading on, he found out that she recorded her songs and distributed her music around campus. It seemed to him that she was so great that it was just a matter of time before Virt Records signed her on as a recording artist.

Likewise, he was also like that. He studied psychology in De La Salle University. On his first year there, he mustered enough courage to undergo the Malate Literary Folio's application procedure to become a poetry staff. He got in as a probationary staff but to become a full-pledged staff, he needed to get published in the folio. Deadline after deadline, he submitted his works but he never got anything published until he joined the university's 10th Literary Awards. He won first place under the Filipino poetry category. More than the prize money, he found that seeing his name on the staff box of the Lit Awards edition of the folio more fulfilling. However, after graduation, he set aside his writing for a call center position. "Money for food before starving," was his motto then.

For Vienna, the rest was history after she quit her software engineering job. As for Richard, he has just recently abandoned his call center career to become a writing tutor. He figured that he could hit two birds with one stone with this job: he can live la vie bohemme and earn at the same time. He thinks that history will come for him soon. 

For now, he is just dreaming through the noise with Vienna. Her tracks makes him happy everyday. He is inspired by Vienna to continue writing. Realizing that he had similarities with her makes him feel that his time will come.



"It's been a hard day's night and I've been working like a dog... ." The lyrics kept on playing in my head. I've been working so hard these past few days. However, contrary to what others may feel, I think I am still blessed because I have a creative and intellectual job, my boss is cool, and, most of all, I can do some of the work at home.

I've been working as an essay tutor. I help students make essay revisions by pointing out their essay's strengths and weaknesses. I am so glad that I found this job because it let's me be creative. I am free to deal with it any way that I wish, except doing it in a rude way. I've even created my own set of rules to effective writing. In addition to that, it lets me think. I am challenged intellectually. Every essay is different so I must think of the best ways to help the students improve their essays. I can't wish for anything else.

Working at our office is also great because my supervisor is so cool. We can talk to her as if we were just friends. Don't get me wrong, we are friends but in the workplace, rank still has its weight. However, she does not really impose on us. She just tells us about updates and our targets.

Last night, Richard couldn't sleep. He was waiting for someone to text him. While waiting, he fixed his blog once again; he designed something black this time. He felt that the long wait for that someone was taking forever. He finished writing the code for his blog. He also finished a 10's pack of Winston Lights already. He wanted to sleep already but his mind was still wide awake.

All of a sudden, his cell phone beeped that long awaited beep... but alas, it was just a false alarm. It was Globe texting him that his unlimited texting is over. "Too bad," he said to himself. It felt like time was running out for him.
That was around 12:30 in the wee morning. He felt more than sleepy by 3:38 AM so he decided to let this post just hang.




I've always considered myself a person who's living for the future. I tend to plan ahead and play all possible scenarios in my head before I go into something.

In contrast, I've met some people who I consider to be living in the past. They tend to loose hope because they get stuck in a sorrowful moment that's not even there anymore.

I tend to refer to those people as ghosts because ghosts are exactly like that. They tend to linger and they get caught in past events. They can't move on and be at peace. Last night, I had a conversation with a person whom I considered a ghost and here's what I told him:

"Be like an archer. He sets his eyes on the mark. He looks forward to it. He Knows that he needs to let go of some things to get his goal, his arrows, but he never forgets to hold on to some things that are important like his bow."

I hope that made sense to him.

___jet_set_siRen____by_jadedice

tea steams in a paper cup.

the siren's song is defied by ears,
leaves and lips that refrain from coffee.

cigarette smoke swirls.

sipping from my cup, showing no fear of heat,
should encourage you to hold my hands.

breath is blown out.

my eyes encouraged your fingers.
tea leaves on cup-bottom already fortells good fortune.

tea steams in a paper cup. cigarette smoke swirls.
breath held back waiting for silence to break
and Starbucks resumes her song.

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